Saturday, May 23, 2009
Hardest decision ever
Schnauzi - August 15, 1995 - May 23, 2009
For 14 years, my Schnauzi (miniature Schnauzer) has been my companion, dearest friend, my baby. Today Schnauzi will take her last breath. She hasn't eaten in five days, her kidneys and liver aren't functioning well, and her little system is shutting down. This has been going on for several weeks, and although she doesn't seem to be in pain, the vet said that she is in a deep malaise. She still purrs like a cat when I'm holding her, and she tries to be close to me at all times. They say one can't prepare for the inevitable. It is true. I have known for a while now that I have to let her go, but that doesn't mean anything today. At 3 pm today my husband is going to put her in my lap, and we are going to a very caring vet. When we come back home, she'll be buried under the little pear tree, and I'll plant a young lavender delphinium. My tears haven't stopped since yesterday. My heart is breaking.